I understand that I am probably one of the most indecisive people ever when it comes to making big decisions. I always get so worried that I will make the wrong one and end up regretting not doing something else. One of the big decisions that I had been putting off was whether to go to university or not.
I decided that the first thing that I needed to do this year was try all of the different things I could do instead of university to see if I would prefer to do that instead. So, I started searching for jobs around where I live.
After looking for a while and applying for everything I could, I finally got my first interview at a large well known DIY store. I felt so out of place in a hardware store surrounded by men that knew more about the store layout than me and women who expected me to just know what bulb fitted what lamp. To be fair though, the interview was so silly as they just chucked us out onto the shop floor and expected us just to know things. Safe to say, I rejected that job oh my gosh.
When I got home from the interview, I saw that there was a missed call on my phone and a voicemail. The call was from a company called Now Skills which is an IT apprenticeship agency that I contacted last year about maybe doing a digital marketing apprenticeship in my year out but I ended up working at Chester Zoo instead for a bit and missing out. The fella on the phone told me that if I was still interested then he had a company that liked my profile and they would like to meet me. Honestly, I felt like I was in a movie or something. You know when weird stuff happens and you think ‘but how did he know that I was looking for something to keep me busy?’ Obviously, I said yes and ended up going to the interview. But, in the same day I had the interview, another three places that I had previously applied for rang me up and offered me interviews as well. Within 1 week, I had 5 interviews: 3 for jobs, 2 for apprenticeships. I have never felt more wanted in my life.
This, although great, was so stressful. I had decided that I didn’t want 3 of them and there were 2 places left: a digital marketing apprenticeship and a job to become a Maths and English tutor at a high school with the gap year tutoring agency Yipiyap. I loved the company that contacted me through Now Skills and the apprenticeship sounded amazing! It would’ve meant that I didn’t have to spend £9,250 a year at university and I could’ve just started at this company and work my way up. On the other hand, I had looked at becoming a Maths tutor before and couldn’t see any way I could without a degree. When looking at jobs, it was the only one that made me excited and made me really want to impress at the interview.[sidenote] When coming to decide whether to do an apprenticeship or go to university, I had a limited time and had to decide quicker than anyone should. I was silly to not way up the options when I had time to. Instead I had 1 week to go to all of these interviews and see if they could sway me in any direction. They all did. All of the people interviewing me sold their businesses very well, which made my decision harder. I ended up grabbing a massive whiteboard and made a pros and cons list like Ross in Friends to help me figure out what I wanted to do.
I decided to take the job and then follow on to University. I understand that most people would think ‘but you will make money instantly at an apprenticeship and university will be a waste of 4 years if you end up getting a job similar to it afterwards anyway’ but I am 18 years old and I want to have fun. I have never ever in my life done something slightly rebellious or risky or a little stupid. I have been to 1 nightclub ever in my life and I even gave my little wristband away at prom (we got wristbands if we were over 18 so we didn’t have to get our ID out every time we wanted a drink). It’s not that I want to be a raving alcoholic that wakes up on the pavement or do something silly and get arrested, I just want to have more of a typical teenage life and less of a safe little quiet one and I think that going to university will allow me to meet similar people that will feel the same. I will never drink alcohol or get a tattoo at 3am because I felt like it but that doesn’t mean that I don’t want to have fun. I am not going to be this young ever again and I feel like I want to make the most of it and socialise with people my age and stop thinking about how much bacteria is on some fella’s phone that he just put in his mouth while he tied his shoe lace and silly things like that. I want university to help me stop worrying.
When I declined the apprenticeship, I felt happy with my decision and I am pretty sure that is a good sign. I got a phone call the other day from the woman at Yipiyap saying that a school wants me to be their maths tutor so I am a happy bunny. I am ready for the next 4 years to be fun and exciting.
So, if you are reading this now and in a similar situation, how can you decide whether you want to go to university or not? Well, I will be posting a blog post next week on how you can help yourself figure out what you would want to do and I will have it linked here for you to have a peek at. [Uni or Not Uni post]
I hope you all have a lovely day!