This month has been such a relaxing month! One of the main advantages of working in a school is that you are allowed to enjoy 2 whole weeks off and still get paid – honestly, the best thing ever. I think, because I was given so much time to relax, I was so laid back about blogging that I hardly posted but the whole break from here and social medias has been so refreshing. Although, I am happy to be back and I am ready to start posting a little more often in May. May, I can’t believe it’s already nearly May.
So, what did I do this month? Other than relax watching Netflix (yes, I got Netflix this month – such a bad idea because now I am glued to the computer) I have actually been at work. So, as some of you may know, I am now a tutor with Yipiyap, which is a gap year agency that offer gap year students an opportunity to work in a school to try and keep their head in the education mindset and I have been loving it. I feel as though I am kind of important and I really enjoy it. Plus, I am a little bit of a Maths nerd and teaching pupils Maths is kind of fun.
As well as working, I have had a lot of time being able to relax. I started this blog because I struggled with anxiety and I just wanted to talk about it. I would have panic attacks daily at one point and not do things because I was scared I would be the “loser” who would pull out at last minute due to being scared but I have noticed a real change in myself. Yes, being on this gap year has meant that I have literally no drama in my life that that was always going to allow my anxiety to calm down but there is something about this year off that has really helped. Yes, I still get nervous if I have to do something that I have never done before and yes, I still get anxious if I feel sick but I can’t say that it is on my mind 24/7 anymore and that is ah-maz-ing. Honestly, if someone ever says “I want to take a gap year but not because I need to re-sit exams or because I want to travel but because my anxiety is getting on top of me” I would say “well it has worked for me so it could possibly work for you too.” I can safely say that at the moment, my anxiety is happily a 2/10 and that is the lowest it has been for about 8 years.
That’s not to say that this gap year hasn’t been a struggle. It’s all well and good taking some kind of “me time” but I was satisfied with the amount of me time I got before Christmas. If there was a way for me to have started university in January then I think I honestly would have taken the opportunity. Part of me thinks that my anxiety is only quiet because I am comfortable. I am so comfy being at home, I am comfy working at a school with people who are willing to listen to me telling them why Maths is important in life. I am comfy with popping to Morrisons down the road to get some milk. Nothing that I am doing is really that exciting and that is why I have decided to go and live at university. I don’t think I have mentioned this before on here but I have decided to move to Liverpool when I start my Marketing degree. Although this is SO out of character for me, I am really excited to try something so different to the past year that I have had. It will allow me to see if my reduced anxiety will stay at that level. Obviously, I will expect it to shoot through the roof for the first few weeks but I am hoping it will settle back down. All of my friends went to university this year so they can tell me how they handled missing home. Plus, I live in Cheshire anyway so I am not far from my home here. If I want to pop back to grab some free dinner then I can. I think I will do a whole separate post on why I changed my mind to move away but I thought I may just mention it instead of ignoring the fact that it is completely different to what I said in my September posts. It’s a big decision for me but one I am very happy with.
Lastly, something very exciting happened at the helpmeorganics HQ this month. We laughed a whole new range of products and a new scent. We released a sent called “help me bring sunshine to a cloudy day” and it’s perfect for them late night outdoor dinners that you have while the sun is setting. We have made it lovely and fresh so that it can bring the nicest summer breezes into your home. It smells divine! Also, we released some blends of all of our ranges too. They are perfect to use in reed diffusers or anything like that. All of these products and our original ones are obvious available to buy on our website that I will link here. We will also be included in a subscription box this month so keep your eyes out for that.
So, even though this month has been a quiet one, it has been so pleasant. I think that having 2 full weeks off is something everyone should do if they can. I have never had 2 weeks off without homework or coursework to do so it was an absolute dream.
In May, I would like to:
- See Billy Elliot in the theatre. I heard it is amazing so I have managed to get tickets! I also break up for whit the day before so it will be a nice way to kick off that week.
- Go to Chester Zoo, again. I still have 2 free tickets that I got after working their last summer. I love it there, the BEST place to go in Cheshire for a day out!
- I would also like to get my blogging motivation back again this month. I have been a little lazy with blogging in April but I want to get right back into it again. I actually started to post once a week which was very organised and enthusiastic of me. I liked that Claire and I want to go back to her.
Have a lovely May everyone!